The Desert of Arizona
Clear 71 Degrees – 6:47 a.m.
What do you want to do when you grow up?
Why is it so hard for so many people to answer this question? It certainly was hard for me to answer it.
I never could figure out what I wanted to do when I grew up. To be frank, I had a lot of options. I could do almost anything if I really put my mind to it.
Actually, I could “start” anything. Keeping it going is a different matter. I’d probably lose interest in most of the options pretty quickly.
So, because I had no answer for myself, I chose the next best option:
Let’s grow up and do what everyone else says we should do! Yipeee!
Now I gave up living in victim land a long time ago, so I’m OK with it. And that decision brought some beautiful (literally beautiful, like my wife!) things into my world. But for the record, I’m not sure exactly WHO that person was all those years ago who thought that was a smart idea.
So is there a way to actually answer this question?
(We’ve come to the portion of our journey where Jason veers off the beaten path of the business advisor who is supposed to make smart decisions by reading books and attending seminars and looking at spreadsheets and goes headlong into the “forbidden” land of the heart!)
You do what makes your heart sing.
Now if you’ve never experienced that feeling, you might not get what that means. But I’m guessing most people HAVE experienced it, they’ve just been taught it’s a “nice to have” not a MUST HAVE for navigating through life.
Do what makes your heart sing.
Boy Jason, you’re a little bit too idealistic. Just tone it down a little and get your feet back on the ground. Let’s get real. You can’t just do whatever you want! This is reality we’re talking about here! Earth to Jason!”
Can you remember who planted the program that urges you to have “realistic” thoughts? Was it a happy person? Was it a person who was truly LIVING? Was it a person who had done the deep work to find out how to navigate a material world AND live a full expression of a deeper joy?
And what is this “reality” we keep talking about to each other? Is that the reality you’ve accepted that was designed by others? Or did you actually work to create your own?
If you don’t willingly accept the reality of others as your own, does it even exist?
So how do you find out what makes your heart sing?
Well, understand that sometimes this takes work. Because it’s hidden under layers of conditioning that were designed to make sure you never find the answer… or, if you do find it, that you never have the guts to actually take action on that knowing.
I dare to venture a guess that finding out the answer isn’t really the issue. Being OK with the answer and honest with OTHERS about the answer and working to figure out how to weave that answer into a material world… wow, that’s a hard one.
When your truth comes up against the conditioning of others, that can be uncomfortable. And that’s how you’ll know you’re on the right path.
The REAL you knows “what you want to do when you grow up…”
And the “little you” that’s responsible for all of that chattering in your mind is scared to death of the answer.
But you get to choose who gets control.
In the end, I realized that, for me, there was nothing to FIND. It is more a process of allowing to come through what is already there.